I think i have mental problems or somethings wrong with me, please help?

Wow such big problems for little shoulders to bear . Let me tell you about me . I never knew my father . I did found him about 10 yrs after he had died in a car wreck . I found out he died 3 days after I went to prison . In October of of 1992 I had a friend die in a car wreck . For the next six months I lost someone once or twice a month till my grandfather died in march of '93 . 8 friends died before him . His was the last funeral I have gone to . I know how you feel . I have never been as close to anyone as I was my grandfather . Just because I am afraid of losing then again . That is what I thought . A few yrs later a young lady came in to my life and ask me to be the dad to her child . That was 6 kids ago . I will never be a father but I am a loving dad . My kids are 15,15, 13,13 , 3 and 2 . The last being the only boy in the bunch 2 moms and six kids who know I love them all more than their fathers ever will . I also have 12 godchildren . I can say God has had a plan for me all along just as he does you . You just have to hang in there and find out what it is . Also have to remember just when you think you have no one to turn to .... you have us . Time will heal your heart but the memories will always be there for you . As for mom and brother TALK TO THEM let them know you need them and need to talk and if mom can't find the time force her hide the car keys until she does talk to you . If you need a ear to listen to you just hit your power on and let your fingers start dancing we are here for you .